Wow..I have been up soooo late every night this week. Eric has been working 3-3 all week and he’s still been going to bed before me! I have been looking at this computer all day. I’ve spent time doing all sorts of webpage design searching today and playing with an application to set up my photography website - I might still get that together before the end of the year and finally get moving on it. I’ve also spent maaaaany hours trying to clean up OPA’s current server and website to delete unused files so I can set up some things for improvements to that here soon. I still have quite a bit to go through but like I said and I can barely see any more tonight to work on it.

Prior to today I have been doing quite a bit of designing recently. I put up the Ponytails kit Monday, I’ve got a good bunch of elements made towards the Colorful Memories Collection (goal is to release the last several sets of those next week), and I have two sets of quick pages so far (Pumpkin Patch and Primary Wonder). I’d like to try and get a few more quick pages sets ready and release all of that either late this week or next week as well. Lots coming sooon. I also created a beautiful (at least in my opinion lol) kit for the November Tidbytes (SBB Ezine), so if you’re not subscribed to that, you might want to get subscribed before next month or at least pick up the November issue). Maybe I’ll see if I can give a little sneak peek later.

I am doing OK in regards to last week. Funny how after you sit on things and let them pass for a bit they seem a lot more trivial than they seemed at the time. Essentially, I was 3 days late and was hoping I was pregnant (It’s always been difficult and involved for me to get pregnant, but I was holding out hope that this time wouldn’t be) but the tests were coming up negative, so I was a little down about it, but still hoping as I kept being late and many of the symptoms were there. Finally the day came and I was even more sad and dealing with that, but then I started having terrible pain, more like contractions than regular cramping, and on the second morning I could barely get out of bed to even go get some motron to help. I ended up sleeping and staying in bed till about 1 in the afternoon when Eric woke me up. It was just too painful that morning to get up, so it was easier to take the motron and just keep sleeping. I was having to take the meds every 3 hrs because if I let it go longer the meds would wear off and I couldn’t stand the pain. I was considering going to the doctor as I didn’t know if maybe I was somehow miscarrying or if maybe my endometriosis was coming back and causing the pain. By the 3rd day the pain was a little more bearable, so I didn’t go in and by the 4th day it was just uncomfortable cramping. So, I guess I won’t ever know what the problem was, but I’ll be waiting to see what happens next month. If it is that awful again, I guess I’ll have to go see the DR to find out if maybe it’s the endometriosis. So…Amidst all this Eric and I were discussing what to do next. I stopped taking my progesterone pills (which I was taking for 2 yrs since Ky was born to slow the endometriosis growth) the end of March and we’ve taken a somewhat relaxed approach to trying to get pregnant, and so now after about 6 months we’re still not pregnant, so it’s time to decide what we’ll do next and how far we’ll go with all the fertility treatment this time since we have 2 beautiful children already. I could live with having only the two I have, but I’d like to have a 3rd if I can. I’m certainly not willing to do the IVF this round (thankfully I never had to do last time), and I’m not sure I’ll even do an IUI again like we did last time. I’m actually not sure yet if I’ll even go as far as the medications this time. Lots for us to think about, but we’re going to wait at least a few more months before I talk to the OB at all some of these options, unless I find myself in a great deal of pain again this next round.

so…that’s the short of it. I’m sorry that I caused so many people to get so worried about me. Like I said it seemed a bigger deal to me when I was depressed and in pain than it seems now, but I really appreciate all the emails, concern and prayers from so many of you. It really touches your heart when you’re having a tough time to know there are such wonderful people out there thinking of you. I have to even say a little extra thank you to my neighbor (thank you so much Elizabeth). She is such a thoughtful person, even from the first day we moved in when she came by to welcome us. Thanks again to every one for the emails, thoughts and prayers!

So…let me see if I can leave tonight (well really morning now yikes) on a little happier note. I did get a page scrapped last week that I can share.

Instant Friends

Credits: All from Jannylynn’s “Wonderful” kit at Elemental Scraps.

I did actually finish several pages last week as I had 4 of them to do for featured product, but I can’t share those till they come out in the SBB newsletter later this month.